Courage

I was looking at quotes about success and failure (which I will share down below) and I decided to call this blog post courage from the following: 

https://www.brainyquote.com/topics/failure

This quote really stood out for me. Since I failed this week at sticking to my goals and eating nutritionally, I needed motivation. So here I am to give you motivation (if you need it) and share with you my weekly reflection.

If you have already read my update this week (click here if you haven't) then you know this week has been a rough week. I have not be strict with  my nutrition and I have not been exercising. It was rough. I was putting myself down (a lot) but not getting up do do anything about it. It wasn't until Thursday (Pizza day at school) that I realised something needed to change. There is not point in talking myself down and not doing anything to fix what was going on. 

http://dailyquotes.co/failure-inspires-winners-success-quotes/

So, I made a weekend plan.  Starting on Friday, all the way to Sunday. I had a goal in mind, I set out my intentions for the next few days (short term goals) and set out to do them. No cheat meals, no guessing what I was going to eat. I could make no over eating decision because I had a plan. I sat down with my fiance and we planned meals (all of them) and that was that. It is 1 pm on Sunday, and I must say this weekend has been one of the most successful I have ever had!

http://consult4sales.com/fail-plan-plan-fail-2/

That may seem harsh, but a huge part of being successful in this journey is planning. Setting out weekly intentions, planning meals, prepping meals... it all has a huge part in my success. This gets my mind in the perfect framework to be successful. 

What I am going to do this week:

Only Plan Mon-Wed in detail so that I am not losing sight of the rest of the week.

On Wednesday I will play Thursday/Friday

On Friday I will plan Saturday/Sunday

http://fitnessfunatics.ca/2015-new-years-resolution/

I want to see if this will work differently for me this week. Instead of planning the entire week, I will do a few days at a time to focus and remember what I am doing AND to reflect and improve. I should be reflecting throughout the week, not just on Sundays.

Anyways, now to get to the knitty-gritty... what you all came here for:

Weigh In:

Original Weight: 202.6 lbs

Last Weight: 179.8 lbs

              Current Weight: 179.4 lbs

Weight Lost From Last Time: -0.4 lbs

Total Lost: 23.2 lbs

It wasn't a crazy amount this week (we all know why) but it is still a loss. I noticed what was happening and turned it around for the rest of the week to wholeheartedly deserve that 0.4lbs. My smallest weight loss in 2018, but so far my proudest.

https://www.askideas.com/87-most-famous-failure-quotes-sayings/

Have a great week.

Stay Focus,

Becky. xo

I did it... again.

Hola!

Not a fun happy post here, but an important one none-the-less. 

For the first time since January I emotionally ate. I was upset and went to food to make me feel better... twice. The first time was at home. I had an emotional night and was very upset about something. I waited and waited and at 8pm I decided to make myself my favourite meal: poutine (fries, cheese and gravy). I had a good sized portion and I am not going to lie... it felt good. I needed that poutine in that moment and I had it. I wasn't until I felt how uncomfortable I was with a distended stomach and feeling so full I was sleepy that I realised I did not need to be doing that. 

Same thing happened today. I had a stressful day at work, and instead of drinking water, taking breaths, making a list of ways to better my situation I turned to good old pizza day. I bought 2 slices of pepperoni pizza and enjoyed them along side my class. Again, it wasn't until about 15 minutes after the pizza that I realise that 1. I did not feel better about the stress of my day, and 2. I just felt guilty. Two nights out of 5 I have failed myself. It does not feel good. It feels awful.

BUT that is not going to stop me. The past 2 weeks have been rough, I am not going to lie. But I am not giving up. I am going to sit down and make a plan (maybe I will post it on here). I am going to get my butt into gear and get going. 

Emotional eating does not define me. I am not an "emotional eater," it is simply not who I am. I battle and struggle with using food as comfort, especially when I am feeling alone. I know this about myself.. which is why I refuse to allow this small sliver in my journey to define me and ruin the entire process. 

Tomorrow is a new day (not Sunday) and I am determined to make this week turn around and become a good week. I will not let they two slip ups ruin my mindset and ruin what I have been working so hard to accomplish. I will not go back...

Here's to a kickass Friday, Saturday, and Sunday! 

Stay Focused,

-Becky. xo

Quickie!

Hola Again!

My week has been rough. It has been very (VERY) busy and I have had a cold for 2 weeks now. It has not been fun and I have been rather hard on myself because of it. I only worked out 1 day this week (Monday) because every other night of the week I had activities I had to do (staff meeting, photography class, kindergarten open house, etc.) I let the workout part of me slide... and that's okay. I was really hard on myself, but I am realising that it is okay. This journey is never going to be easy for me.. but I need to wake up in the morning and set my intentions for the day. Make an active plan and follow through.

That being said, my nutrition and eating habits this week have been really good! I stuck to my healthy eating plan and all went smooth from there! I even went out to Subway on one of my busy days and got a six inch oven roasted chicken breast with barely any dressing. Usually I get a foot-long DOUSED in sauce. Making these little decisions is what is getting me closer and closer to my goal! 

I was pleasantly surprised when I stepped on the scale for this week's weigh in. I know I have been close to getting out of the 180s. I just didn't think today was the day (since the lack of exercise this week). But, I was pleasantly surprise:

Weigh In:

Original Weight: 202.6 lbs

Last Weight: 181.2 lbs

              Current Weight: 179.8 lbs

Weight Lost From Last Time: -1.4 lbs

Total Lost: 22.8 lbs

Now is the time where I am allowed to sit and have a LITTLE regret (okay?). 

Dear Becky,

Can you only IMAGINE where you would be today if you would have gotten off your butt and did 30 minute workouts every day!? This number would probably be CLEAR in the 170s. I am grateful that you ate carefully (instead of binging during busy/stressful times), but keep this in mind when you decide not work out in the future:

1. YOU WILL FEEL BETTER AFTERWORDS. You always feel better after you workout. Even if you are only doing the modified stuff. You always crush it and feel better.

2. It is ONLY 30 minutes. That's it. 30. 10 minutes 3X... 15 minutes 2X... 5 minutes 6X... you can do that.

3. Right now, go... go turn it on and see what happens. Just go do it.. JUST DO IT.

4. If all else fails, it isn't the end of the world. Forget today and wake up fresh tomorrow. You can do it.. I believe in you.

Goals This Week:

Goal #1: Hydration- I have generally been good at this, but I want to keep it consistent! 

Goal #2: Work Out- Even if it is just once. Work out, feel better, walk the dog, get moving. 

Short and sweet goals this week. I just want to become more consistent in many aspects. I think I have got this whole healthy eating thing DOWN, so now I just have to work on the other parts of gaining a healthy lifestyle.

Have a GREAT week!

Stay Focused, be strong.

Cheers,

Becky xo

Success!?

HELLO!

It is now the beginning of February and I have so much to talk about! I want to get straight into it!

Last Goals:

#1 Eat Breakfast: DONE. I ate breakfast EVERYDAY this month. It has been the best I have done in my entire life! I get shakeology and it has been WONDERFUL. I have been making fruit smoothies with a scoop of Vanilla shakeology and I have been in HEAVEN!

#2 Exercise 30 minutes EVERY DAY: DONE! I did skip a couple days (I hate Pilates to be honest), but for the most part I did work out Mon-Sat. The first week I was HELLA sore.. but after that I did so well!

#3 Meal Plan/ Make a Grocery list:  DONE! Alex and I planned every day for the past three weeks! 

Weigh In:

Original Weight: 202.6 lbs

Last Weight: 185.4 lbs

              Current Weight: 181.2 lbs

Weight Lost From Last Time: -4.2 lbs

Total Lost: 21.4 lbs

PARTY!

21 Day Fix has been incredible for me! I have been so motivated and focused on crushing my goals. I could not be happier. I feel energetic and NOT DEPRIVED (the most important thing). I cannot believe it. I plan on blogging more in the next 21 Day Fix (starts on Monday). 

21 Day Fix says that you need three things to be successful in weightloss:

1. Meal Plan

2. Exercise Plan

3. SUPPORT

The support has been awesome. Knowing that there are people out there doing the same workouts as you and waiting for you to log what you are doing was so important to me! I didn't know how important putting things out to the universe was. Knowing that someone (my coach Joanna) knew what my goals were and was there to encourage me made a big difference to me. I wanted to make her proud and make myself proud. It has been wonderful.

Honestly, I am so pumped to get started again. I have been eating healthy this week (even though it is a prep week) and I am excited to get back to the grind! I am going out to buy heavier weights for next round.

11 inches in three weeks..

I am going to look HOT on my wedding day.

-Becka, xo

First Weigh In of 2018!

This one will be short and sweet! 

Setting my weekly intentions and showing my weigh in.

Original Weight: 202.6 lbs

Last Weight: 186.8 lbs

              Current Weight: 185.4 lbs

Weight Lost From Last Time: -1.4 lbs

Total Lost: 17.2 lbs

Weekly Goals:

#1 Eat Breakfast: Honestly, this will always be a struggle for me. Breakfast is just so hard. I have recently bought "Shakeology" and plan on making Vanilla/Banana milkshakes for breakfast on school days. I have really been enjoying boiled eggs for breakfast too, so I think a little meal prep for that will help me to have breakfast. Why must breakfast be so hard!?

#2 Exercise 30 minutes EVERY DAY: I have started the 21 day fix with a wonderful group of girls. This requires me to do a 30 minute workout every day... but it is only 30 minutes! Let's be serious, I spend way more time than that on my phone every night! My goal is that every day at 7 pm I will do my workout (NO EXCUSES). I can do 30 minutes. I just have to get up and do it!

#3 Meal Plan/ Make a Grocery list:  This is easy enough, actually I am going to do it right after I finish writing this post. This will help me to know exactly what I am doing and make sure I actually follow through. 

That should be it for this week. A simple week. I want to start of strong and do a good job!

See you Next Sunday!

<3

Becka

So far 2018 has been Eggsellent!

HOLA! 

So the past week has been quite an interesting experiment. I have NEVER enjoyed hard boiled eggs. I can't stand the smell of them and so I have never even remotely been interested in eating them. Until New Years Day... 

On New Year's Day I decided to make my fiance some Devilled Eggs because he loves them and his best friend always makes them for New Year's Eve. Since we are so far from home I wanted to cheer him up and make some eggs for him. I fully intended on making them just for me and not trying one at all... I really wasn't interested.

However, after they were cooked I decided to take a bite. I wanted to taste what I made for my fiance and prove to myself that all these years of not eating boiled eggs was okay because boiled eggs taste disgusting.

I was wrong.

They were DELICIOUS and I have been hooked ever since. I have been playing around with the recipe to try and make them slightly healthier. I think today is the day! The day that I have created a more healthy Devilled Egg!

Original Recipe:

2 Eggs (boiled... obviously)

1 tbs of Olive Oil Hellman's Mayonnaise 

.5 tsp of French's Dijon Mustard (we have the Chardonnay kind)

Pinch of Garlic Powder

Pinch of Onion Powder

Salt/Pepper to taste. 

By making small changes (since the spices/mustard really flavour the yolk) I have cut this recipe from 267 calories and and 23g of Fat to 190 Calories and 16g of Fat. How you might ask? GETTING RID OF THE MAYONNAISE!

I thought that having the Olive Oil Mayonnaise made it okay, and I am sure it is better for you than regular mayonnaise, but honestly... 100 calories in 1tbs is WAY too many calories for me! 12g of Fat in 1tbs!? Are you kidding me!?

So I looked around in my fridge and was looking at what I could substitute mayonnaise with and came up with Philadelphia Cream Cheese. Honestly, it went so well. I thought they tasted wonderful and I wasn't wasting away on a processed food that is completely beneficial to put in my body.

Here's what I did today:

2 Eggs

0.5 tbs Philadelphia Cream Cheese    (23 calories, 2g fat)

0.5 tsp of French's Dijon Mustard'

Pinch of Garlic Powder

Pinch of Onion Powder

Salt/Pepper to taste

I must say, I am pretty proud of myself for this. Usually I would just say "meh, 267 calories for breakfast isn't that bad... I don't need to change." But this new mindset where I am thinking about what I am putting into my body is really sinking in. I now can have a snack a couple hours after my breakfast and not feel guilty or worry about whether or not I am over eating. It has been lovely to tell you the truth. 

Just wanted to get this out there, and hopefully re-reading this in the future will remind me to try new things. Sticking to what you know is what has gotten you into this predicament. You are only going to be a new you if you change. Get out of your comfort zone. Experiment. Try new things. This is going to be my year. I can tell. 

Why Hello 2018!

Here I am, once again. I always feel like I need to apologise for not blogging more often... or for falling of the band wagon (when it comes to blogging). So, Sorry I've been MIA.

I haven't been focusing too much on my diet and exercise lately. I also haven't been binging and not caring at all. To be honest, it has been a nice balance. I haven't been obsessing and I haven't been indulging every day. Now that I look back at my last entry, I have actually lost weight and I think I am at the lowest I have been since blogging on this website.

Everything has been good. We adopted a dog (the most adorable thing that currently exists on this planet!) which has encouraged me to do some more walking. I take him for at least 1 walk every day so that has been working out for me and the little fur ball. I do admit, Alex does take the dog out for a walk much more frequently than I do. Something I hope I can change. 

Introducing: Kodi (age 4 adopted for almost 5 months)

**Sorry, I couldn't choose just one photo**

  
 

Anyways, in the spirit of the New Year, I am going to post my New Years Resolutions. Again, Weight Loss isn't a Resolution because (like I said last year) it is a life long journey that I have been dealing with for a long amount of time. My Resolutions are usually things I wish to change to make my life better.

Resolution #1 

To develop a proper night time/ morning routine.

At the current moment, I do not have a set "schedule" for "bed time." I often forget to do pretty important things (shower, take off make-up) which leads to a mad scramble in the morning when I need to shower, get ready, make a lunch, walk the dog (sometimes), have breakfast, and be out the door by 7am.  I hope that this year I can develop some sort of routine or schedule so that my mornings are a lot easier and less stressful. 

Resolution #2

To continue to spice up supper time.

I admit it, most of the time I come home with my fiance and we decide to cook something simple that both of us enjoy. It's nice... but I miss cooking. Last year I had the same resolution and I managed to add 8 recipes to our repertoire. I enjoy cooking, it makes me excited and happy. I want to continue building recipes (I discovers an incredible devilled eggs recipe yesterday) and cook more from scratch. This will include planning meals out for the whole week rather than spur of the moment decisions.

I hope to have 1 new recipe a month (at least), so this time next year there should be 12 more recipes in my recipe book.

Resolution #3

Be Healthier

I do not mean "lose weight." I think there is a big difference in what I am trying to say here. By this is mean:

• Get a full night's sleep
•  Drink Plenty of Water
• Wash/Moisturize your face and skin
• Take time for yourself (yoga, painting, etc).
• Eat foods that nourish your body, not foods that temporarily make you feel good (cakes, etc).
• Grow and strengthen your relationships

That is it for my resolutions this year. I usually only do 2 resolutions, but since one of them is continuing from last year I think I am good with adding a third one. 

Oh, and I suppose I should update you on how the whole weight situation is going (since this blog is about losing weight).

Original Weight: 202.6 lbs

Last Weight (29 April): 189.6 lbs

              Current Weight: 186.8 lbs

Weight Lost From Last Time: -2.8 lbs

Total Lost: 15.8 lbs

We are getting there, slowly... but surely.

Happy New Year's Everyone! 

xo